She was right

So who was right. Sexy Sailor.  She told me that I was always "on", always making jokes and all that stuff.  So I tried talking to this girl at the bar only I kept my jokes at a minimum.   We had a nice conversation,  she hugged me goodbye,  so Sexy Sailor was right.  It's weird, I think this girl likes me and hopes to see me again.  I don't know if I want to though.  I think I'm finally at that point where I don't want to date.  I definitely don't want to have sex or anything like that.   Maybe a bit of nude wrestling but that's it.  I don't understand. I've been so sad for the past 5 years of being alone.  I thought it was me that was the problem.  Nope it was them.  I only seemed to hit on women out of my league or those who were nuts.  So now I choose to live alone, I choose to die alone, and on my own terms.  That is I don't want to be nagged to death.  I will die in a Spanish speaking country trying to catch fish with a shoe-lace and pop tab.   I am still open to the idea of slave girls though.  Hmm.  So last week I decided to become a villain. Now I want to isolate myself from the world.  I'm sensing a pattern.

Happy Birthday to me!

Well had a great party last night.  Lots of people came out for both me and Lisa.  Some  people came out for them selves.  They announced to everyone they were leaving cause there was no karaoke.   That hurt my feelings a little.  But on to bigger and better things.

    2 years ago at my birthday party.   It was my last time smoking or drinking for 6 months.  From my birthday til the 5 k.  Of course I can't really jog right now, and I can barely walk.  But as Jason (Red Ranger) said. "isn't the smallest chance of winning worth continuing the fight?"   Every year on my birthday I watch the Green Ranger Saga,  I know it's childish. That's the whole point.  Remember where I came from.  I can't watch it without thinking of all my friends I grew up with,  talking about this series.  I was about 13 or 14 at the time. probably a little too old to be watching in the first place.  But I didn't care.  This was a 5 part mini-series for a kids show.  The hero's lost almost every fight.  They lost Zordon, they lost the Zords, the almost lost Hope.  I'm not much of a Super Hero.  But I've lost hope a long time ago.  I fully believe the universe is against me.  Luckily I have friends who are also fighting the universe.  Look at Ralph for example.  He buys $600 worth of food,  to cook for mine and Lisa's party's yesterday.  Yet all he got was complaint after complaint.  Giving his time energy and money wasn't enough.  Meanwhile from my perspective, I'm thinking how can someone give so much and be treated like shit.  This is one of the many reasons why I've decided to become the Bad Guy.  I am the villain of the story.   From now on I'm gonna go to people's birthday parties and complain that it isn't all about me.  I'm only gonna get drunk if there is a chance it will get violent. If I see you eating on a patio, I'm gonna kick you in the head grab your food and walk away saying  "I just ate your lunch."   Being nice, and cordial, and all that is for losers.  I want to be a winner, and I'm finely willing to step all over people to get there.  So Fuck You for reading this and DON"T have a nice day.

Just got into a "fight"

So this Girl.  Me and her believe the same things when it comes to Abortion and Gay marriage.  But we disagree on Presidential candidates.  She is for Obama,  I'm for Ron Paul.  She finds Skeletons in the closest for Ron Paul.  I say they are all based on lies put out there my a controlled media that hates him.   So long Story Short she talks to me like I was  a child. " If you want to believe that you go right ahead.  I only deal with Cold Hard Facts."  So I send her Some Cold Hard Facts.  then she yells at me for putting stuff on her wall.  It's not her Fault. He Intelligence tells her that I'm crazy.   This is the Problem in North America.  Ever Since 9 11, our Rights and all that fun stuff has been taken away.  Some People Believe Only By Bush.  Some people Believe Only By Obama.  Both are wrong. The Patriot Act took many rights away, as Introduced by Bush, and Re-upped my Obama.  The NDAA was introduced by Obama but I guarantee you that if romney got it. the NDAA would stay.  The NDAA says that they can arrest anyone at anytime for Suspicion of being a terrorist. Without trial, or due process or even proof.  The Department Of Justice a few Years ago released a list of Domestic Terrorists.  Ron Paul Supporters, Gun Owners, People who store Food, or Grow Gardens. I can't make this up. I read it with my own eyes after downloading it from the Pentagon's website.  Legally like everyone can.  That document from the DOJ was done under Bush.  I'm not Picking on Obama,  they're both Evil.  Now as of March next year every american is supposed to have a Chip put in them.  that Sounds Crazy.  But I've read the Bill From Congress.  Once again I'm the Crazy theorist.   Oh and Alex Jones Broke the story 2 years ago.  It is clear to me that people only like Facts when it suits them.  If you show them other facts they treat you like a child or like your crazy.   I was basically Bullied by this person.  She puts 8 posts on my wall. all Lies about Ron Paul.  All Opinion based news.  I put Facts On hers and she did nothing but yell at me.   My facts debunked her Assertions.  So the Best way to deal with that.  Block me.  Only surround herself with people who believe Exactly what she Believes.   Anyone else with Facts.  "Has no Life", is a crazy conspiracy Theorist, and needs to ignored.  Learn from history or you'll be doomed to repeat it.

What's Sadder Than a Sad Clown.

Sorry for those that come here hoping to be entertained.  Then again my brother is the only one who reads these anyways.  I wanted to keep a blog cause people don't like me when I talk on Facebook.  I've had some retweets on Twitter but usually only when talking about politics, or should I say Paulitics.  My life depresses me, my work depresses me.  Politics depress me,  my body depresses me.   Even a show called Glee is starting to depress me.  It's only a TV show,  but guy's are trying suicide, women are getting beaten, and the woman surviving a car accident is finding love.  The biggest thing that has been making me feel like a 'has-been'  is that I've never taken a single shot in my life.  If a woman turns me down I sulk instead of making her fall in love with me like I know I have the power to do.   I've never professionally taken a shot. I'm gonna be 33 this month and I've never even tried.  I've just floated through life.  As William Wallace said in Braveheart.  "Every man dies, not every man truly lives".   I ask myself why I never tried out for wrestling school 10 years ago.   I ask myself why I never auditioned for a part in a local production.  I know I have the stage presence.   Am I a Loser? No! Cause to be a loser you have to have competed, I'm not a has-been, I'm a never-was.  I don't even know if I want anyone to read this or if i'm just writing it down to get it out of my system.

     Since I got hit by that car my life has been a total mess.  I was in training for the kettlebell competition.  I was in training for the 10k run in May.   In August of last year I would have competed in the Try a Tri.  a Shorter distance Triathlon.  By early this year I would have been looking to up my mark and weights at this year's Kettlebell Comp.  I also would have been looking for a half-marathon in the spring to get me ready for the Toronto Marathon in the fall.  IT was all planed out.  Shitstorms are hard to forecast.  Every time I see my doctor I tell him how depressed I am.  But he just doesn't listen.  I think about suicide almost daily.   I've talked with some friends but I usually change the subject.  I talk to one guy at work who is like an angel. I always tell him if he were gay I'd marry him.  Either way when I win the lottery and become a Bond Villain he's gonna be my mad scientist

   See I make jokes even when unloading.  A woman asked/told me last week, that I'm always "on", if I would just be myself I might find someone.  Well I made a joke of it of course.  The one thing women say is an overriding feature in men that they find attractive is confidence.  I don't have any left.  I pretend to have some.  I'll sing an Adele song or two at karaoke.  But that's a mask(and I really like Adele).  How Am I supposed to show a woman that I'm frail, and weak.   I haven't been looking for a woman this year.  Like I said in an earlier post.  I got a woman's number but I don't really want it.  I can't afford to take a woman for coffee.  How am I supposed to go on an actual date.  Yes it's chauvinistic to think that I have to pay.  But it's also Chivalrous to know that I have to pay.

 I don't know if you read this, just tell me to be happy and I'll oblige.

Here's a song to cheer you up.

It's Been a few years but....

WOW I threw up at the bar.  I'm glad I made it to the toilet.  So all night long only woman in the bar is the bartender.  Of Course I have no chance but she's so gorgeous I can't help but stay.( I know I'm weak)  finally 2 girls come in.  Once again I have no chance.  That is, if a woman is looking for a one night stand. I have no choice.  But if she's looking for a man,  yeah I'm still not her first choice. hehehe.  These 2 girls must have had bruised ribs the amount of pricks bumping in to them.   I can't play that game.  It's another facet of the accident that drives me nuts.  I think if I was at the bar,  I probably would have not been drinking and By this time I would probably been around 220lbs, and maybe just maybe. I would have given some of the ladies Goose Bumps.  But as it stands, thanks to this guy running me over I'm back to absolutely no chance at becoming one half of a couple for at least  20 more years.  I'm glad I know this.  The chase is overrated.  I'm happy knowing I'm gonna be single for the rest of my life.   BTW.  I really want to write a positive one of these.  but my life sucks......

Second on Google Search.

So when you search Bibbos Ace Of Clubs on Google, I'm the second Choice.  Too bad no one knows who Bibbo is.  Even though I explain it early in my blog.  Playoff hangover, came in to work early bought everyone a coffe as per my lost bet.   Head held high, Sens did a great job this season and in this series.  You know I love Don Cherry, and he said it best. 'The best team lost.'  I like these days at work when I feel like I'm actually accomplishing something in the world.    It's a pain in the ass though, not to mention back, shoulder, neck and head.   I almost went out drinking last night,  but it was karaoke.  Although I love karaoke.  I usually only like to sing with Ralph.   Did I mention I sang Rolling in the Deep last week at karaoke.  It was probably as bad as you'd think.  But karaoke is japanese word for 'I don't give a Fuck', Honest. Look it up.    Well I guess that's all I have to say for now.   See you next time.

Happy Game Seven Day

So it's game seven of the Stanley Cup Playoffs.  What a great opening round.   But It all wraps up tonight.  The  Ottawa Senators have played in 4 Game sevens and lost them all.  Before the season started every expert in the hockey media predicted Ottawa to finish last.  Heck most of the fans thought we would finish last or close to last.  I was secretly hoping we'd do better.  But I knew at the end of the year.  We were in year 1 of a rebuild.  So sit back and enjoy the games, watch how the young kids on the team play,  and be happy for Alfredson who just might be playing his last year.

Fast forward to the end of the year, Sens are in a playoff spot.  Okay so we were in a playoff spot most of the year.  But how, why?  Well we have a new coach, new Goalie,  Lots of young talent and a few veterans.  Jason Spezza is having a career year.  Alfie is playing Like he's in his early 30's and we have the most offensive Defensive in the league by 20 + points.  So we're 8th seed, going against the number 1 seed New York Rangers.  Rangers in 4, Rangers in 5.  The "Experts" were at it again.  It's been a tough, tight series.   It all comes down to tonight.  No matter what the outcome, My Head will held high tomorrow.  The entire Sens Army's Heads will be held high,  The Ottawa Senators surely will have their heads held high.   But if we win....The question needs to be asked.  Was this year a blip in the rebuild,  or was last year a blip in the franchise???? GO SENS GO.

I wonder if I should write more.

I like writing down my thoughts,  I like giving my thoughts to tv shows, Wrestling, Superman characters, how bad I am at dating and women and everything.  and of course movie reviews. I know on sites like Cinemassacre.com and thatguywiththeglasses.com  the have 'blogged' reviews.   The problem is they are mostly negative reviews.  Despite my depression I really like to have positives reviews and such.  Say what you will about last week's Impact,  I loved the wedding inside the steel cage, everyone in their undies.  Especially ODB.  2nd hottest woman in wrestling right now.  See I look on the bright side of life.  I got a girls number last week at the bar.  I'd been trying to get it since October.   But really not trying that hard.  Diane the former owner of the bar told me to lose it, she's nothing but trouble.  I think she's right but I might go for a green tea with her  anyways.  Despite the fact that I'm the greatest guy in the world(with a body to match) , I don't get to go out that often with a lady.  Mostly due to me being chronically sore and broke.

    I called in sick to work today.  I was just so sore and in pain I could barely stand.  I didn't have no pain killers to help me through the day.   I only take them every 2 or 3 days.  I don't want to get addicted.   I hope the Senators wrap up this series by Saturday.  I really want to go out to karaoke. I miss the boys, and girls down at V.O.G.  Well I guess that's my thoughts today.  I really want to get a review up on the new Muppets movie.  If I don't get to it quick.  It's a non stop tear jerker. happy cries though not sad cries, except for the pictures in my head song.  That one is really sad.  Maybe not as sad as 'Saying goodbye' from the Muppets Take Manhattan.  then again what is cinematically sadder than that.



Well I only had one post in February, none in March.  I'm already at 2 for April is looking up.  Oh and I still haven't lost any weight so the beard is staying.  Take Care....comb your beard.  WOO WOO WOO, You Know It.

Playoffs WOOHOO

 I suppose I should Update the world on the condition my condition is in.  As always I'm still sore.  I can't seem to catch a break.  I lifted a few tires this week and threw them.  I was in pain the rest of the day.  I really miss being the beast I used to be, instead of the beastly creature I've become.  But a few weeks ago I did have the opportunity to work a full shift (Thank You Pain Killers). I felt so good that after work when I was at the coffee shop.  I was tearing up a little talking about how good it felt to make a difference in the world again.  Jan. 24,  2011 to Apr 6,  2012.  That's a long time to go without making a difference.  That's a long time to go without mattering to anyone or anything.  But now I'm back to not mattering,  but that's okay cause the playoffs are here.

     Game 1 We were down 4-0 we battle back and sent a message that we weren't going down easy.  Of course it was Alfie who would open the scoring in the series. After all he is the leader, he rules by example.  a 4-2 final result said that we can beat Lundqvist, and we're in it to win it.   A couple of shaky calls in the first game.  Karlsson takes 5 or 6 unanswered punches to the face -Glove on-, and get's a penalty along with the guy who punched him.  I think that play stuck in the players and coaches stomachs  like it did mine.  If the refs were gonna play that game, than we were gonna play by a different set of rules too.  see following video, from 0:50- 0:53.



Game 2 and yes were playing prison rules.  It started before game when we found out the starting line ups. Carkner was thrown in the line up, I would assume for one reason only and it wasn't to block shots.  I really wonder if it was Maclean saying we need the grit, or if Carkner begged to give the receipt that was owing to Boyle.  Either way it was wild and woolly right from the start, and didn't let up.  2 Game Misconduct's given Early,  Having Dubinsky out of the line up, sure was a win for us.   I was supposed to go to Karaoke last night. and believe me I really want to go.  But I just couldn't turn away. i didn't want to miss one second of this game.  Alfie went down,  but the team rallied.  Foligno took a high stick to the face causing his nose to bleed.  That wasn't called, oh yeah prison rules were in effect.  My new room mate is a Leaf Fan.  He suggested that if we don't win the Cup this year to blame it all on that one 'non-call' by the refs.  to Non hockey folks reading this, sorry that joke will go over your heads.  All in all, Game 1 we lost, but we built momentum, Game 2 we carried that momentum over and made it a win. Heading back home with all this momentum, waiting to hear Lyndon Slewage do what he does best.  We're not just in this Series. It's ours for the taking.

Promo Is Short For Promote

Now I’m not an ex wrestler, I’ve never been in the Biz.  I know quite a bit about wrestling,. but that doesn't make me a historian, nor an expert.   Some of my friends may disagree due to the fact that I usually do pretty well when it comes to trivia.  I wouldn’t  call myself a ‘Smark’ Cause I think that’s insulting to the industry.  I would proudly call my self a ‘Mark’.  A mark is a person who can be easily conned,  it originated in the Carny world, as did modern Pro Wrestling.    In the last couple of years, so called Smarks, meaning Smart Marks have called anyone who cheers, whatever they don’t like a mark.   WWE Mark, Cena mark,  TNA/Impact mark’s.   The reason why I am Proud to be a mark, is because.   I’m a fan of Pro Wrestling.  I buy the Cups and T Shirts.  I watch programming.  I like good Guys, and bad Guys, but when I go to a show. I cheer for the former and boo the latter.  So I’m a mark.  This blog post is from the position of a mark.  Not an expert, or someone knowing the in’s and  out’s of the biz.


 I wanted to talk a bit here about the 2/20/12 Raw, and how it relates to promo’s.   I tweeted a couple of weeks ago something to the effect of. “Oh no not another HHH - Taker match.” .  But then the next week, HHH came out and started talking about why he didn’t want the match with Taker.   In less than 10 minutes,  while talking about how he’s not gonna wrestle the Taker.  About why he’s not gonna wrestle the Taker.   Somehow I suddenly wanted to see this  match.   For about a year we’ve been speculating on who would face Taker in what we guessed would be his last Mania.   We( me and my friends)  wanted anyone but HHH.  After all they’ve already fought twice at Mania.   Yet in 10 minutes,  of a promo where HHH was not I repeat NOT, Trying to get a match over.  He made us want it more.  Than Taker came out and did a video package(which I’m guessing he put together inside his head with all his Magical Powers, and not By WWE creative), And I wanted to see the match even  more.  Than the Next week, HBK came out.    And these 2 tore the house down with a great 2 way Promo.   And after Last night,  we have the match in Hell In a Cell.   A theme that has been Prevalent in these promo’s has been, ‘the end of an era”.  clearly they’re talking about the Taker’s career.   But at the same time HHH, HBK, and Taker, together in these promo’s made me go from a match I didn’t want to see, to a match I had to see.    This why I’m a mark, but more importantly.  This why these two are the end of an era.  Without throwing a single punch.  They have made people want to spend money on this match.   They talked them into the building, truly a Lost art in Pro wrestling.   I hope Folks in the back were taking notes.

Which brings me to the Next Promo I wanted to talk about.  John Cena’s promo on the Rock.  Or Dwayne.    A lot of fans on the internet, and at live events don’t like Cena.   They say he can’t wrestle,  and they’re probably right.    But I think he wrestles good enough.  His promo’s are generally in the category of watching some bad movie where your expecting the star to say, “Look at me I’m Acting”.     Actually you could be talking about Cena’s own movies which he himself poked fun at last night. However I truly love the movie Legendary.   But last night something changed.   I could sense the hate in him.  The hate that Kane had been talking about, He has embraced it.  But not against the fans.  Against the Rock.  I should point out here that I am a Huge Fan of the Rock,  and also that I don’t hate, or dislike Cena.  I’ve also never been a huge fan of Cena either.   I do cheer Cena at live events because I saw this little kid crying once cause everyone was booing his hero.   I thought back to when all the grown ups told me how much Hulk Hogan sucked, Or how much better Thesz, Bruno, or Backlund were. I thought back to my teens when everyone told me that Bret Hart sucked(yes even here in Canada).  I remember how I felt then, so When I saw this kid Crying I started chanting for Cena.  People looked at me a little weird than noticed Why I was doing it.  and a few started Chanting "Lets go Cena" with me.  The Little boy only about 5 or 6 years old, had stopped crying,  His Grandpa who had brought him mouthed Thank you  to me.  It was a great feeling.  

But I digress back to last nights promo on Raw.  It did more to promote this match than any previous promo, by Cena or the Rock.   I felt the Passion of why Cena Hates the Rock,  I felt the Passion for Cena being a ‘Professional Wrestler”.   For the first time I felt that Cena does want to go to war with an opponent, that he truly does hate the guy he’s fighting.   Once again this is why I’m a mark.  I’m willing to suspend that disbelief for the product and allow it take me to a special place.    In the 8 or so years that Cena has been around the WWE.  I’ve never felt like he meant a promo before last night.   I think Cena is a fan of Pro Wrestling.   In being a fan I think that he has taken some notes,  from Taker, and HHH,  from CM Punk, and yes even from the Rock.   The Rock has all his fancy catchphrases but at the same time,  he has a Passion that makes you want to see him kick ass, or get his ass kicked.   Cena finally achieved that status.   I want to see Cena vs. The Rock, and for the first time in a year. I want to see John Cena win.    John used to have a catchphrase back when the fans used to cheer him.  He said that this was “Real Recognizing Real”.  I liked that Catchphrase,  and Last night, John Cena.  You were Real, and I’m Recognizing it.